8.27.10

today is my first day in Ohio alone
it is my first day with out Shea
it is the first time i dont know when ill see him again
it is a tearing
time is passing hardly at all now
some of the time it is hard to move at all
i am not inspired to do anything momentarily
yet i feel as though i want to
i have left myself
myself has left me
when he loves her
when she loves him
its hard to breath
hard to eat
hard to speak
hard to be anything
when one is ripped in two
i would hardly make my bones move away from you
it will always feel like it was the wrong
thing to do